finally

i'm finally making a post. not that i found time, right now this is my excuse for not studying for my exam. as long as i'm being productive in some aspect, i value the trade off. so many times do i get caught up in worrying about something so specific as one course's exam, that i fail to realize the bigger pictures in life. i remember one day in particular. i'm in my car speeding down the state route, late for my meeting. i'm doin close to 80 in a 60, my mind's doin 105 in a 30. as a approach my exit, i notice the bridge going up, every curse word known to man exits my mouth all at once. i pull up behind the car in front, throw my car in park, turn the ignition off and put my hands over my face to do one of those physical sighs, hoping that by the time i open my eyes the bridge will begin to go down. i open my eyes and notice the beaming sun illuminating the cloudless sky. "it's a beautiful day" i tell myself as i reach for my car's door handle. i'm outside looking over the barrier at the craziest reflection of the city's skyline. and that's when i realized: in today's fast-paced world, sometimes we need those unexpected things to stop or slow us down for us to realize how valuable everything in our life is and how marginal those little things we get caught up in truly are. through the people i have lost in my life, i have learned how life is flimsy. i hug, kiss, love for the last time, every time. because yesterday history, tomorrow's a mystery, but today...well today is a gift.

peace, love, respect,

serg of tape